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Alhamdulillah hari ni 13 Mac 2017 genap 8 tahun usia perkahwinan kami ❤

Kejap je rasa. So many things happened in 8yrs. Every marriage has its fair share of challenges and ours is included. Perkahwinan tu takkan selamanya happy. Ada ujian. Airmata kadang2 yg teman. Tapi percayalah Allah tu Maha Mengetahui. Dia tau tahap kesabaran kita. Sebab tu lain pasangan lain ujiannya. Takleh lari. Mana ada perkahwinan yg indah 365 hari setahun. Kan.

Apapun, kena sentiasa syukur. Ada suami yg penyayang. Yang masih sihat tubuh badan. Yang masih terima kita walau fizikal dan emosi kita tak macam masa mula2 kahwin dulu hehe. 

Alhamdulillah 8yrs and now we have 2 boys. ‘Aaqil dan ‘Arfaan. Ada orang kahwin 10 tahun, masih lagi mencuba utk dptkan zuriat. Moga Allah beri kami kesabaran utk membesarkan amanah Allah ini. 

Alkisah pagi tadi tgh duduk2 kat ruang tamu, wish kat suami happy anniv. Lepastu dia kata eh hari ni brp haribulan (tgk fon). Eh aah la. Lepastu episod saya merajuk 5 minit. Sambil ckp ni baru 8tahun yang oiiii…takkan dah lupa. Eh memang geram la kan.

Petang td tiba2 ada orang call ckp nak deliver bunga. Haha! Rupanya suami buat2 lupa pagi tadi. Dia dah order bunga since semalam lagi. Awww thanks sayang for the thot. Hehe Btw nama bunga ni One In A Million. Nampak tak ros putih tengah2 tu. geddit? 😝😘   #cryariver #fortherecord #incasethiscardwentmissing 

Told him sorry i dont have present for you this year. Oh no, silap, thats your present (sambil tunjuk ‘Arfaan yg tengah tidur). Lol

Thank you husband for the great 8yrs. For all the love, the sacrifice, the PATIENCE. I cant promise to make you happy all the time (oh well) but I pray that Allah will protect our marriage from any harm, any bad things and we’ll be together in Jannah, amiiin

I love you ❤

Of Hearing Test

Newborn Hearing Screening test adalah salah satu ujian yg akan dijalankan kpd baby yg lahir di Prince Court. Ingat lagi masa ‘Aaqil dulu neves sesangat tatau kenapa tapi alhamdulillah ‘Aaqil pass. Biasalah first time parents apa yg tak neves kan huhu

Sama juga masa ‘Arfaan. Neves jugak. Especially bila perasan masa first day dia lahir tu dia tak terkejut2 sgt. Bunyi pintu bukak tutup pun dia tidur nyenyak. Kazen2 dtg buat bising lompat2 pun dia tidur tak heran.

Hari ke-2, staff PCMC ada 2 org dtg nak buat hearing test. Bawak test device. Dulu 2012 dia bawak baby gi tempat lain. Kali ni dia buat terus kat bilik wad.

Masa tu ‘Arfaan tidur. Memang masa terbaik utk buat test ni ketika baby tidur, dalam bilik yg sangat senyap. So staff ni pun masukkan la device ni kat telinga kiri. Failed! Re-test, also failed. Kat telinga kanan pun sama. Dua2 staff ni muka concern sesangat. Mungkin sebab jarang dapat result fail kan. 

Oh muka ummi takyah cerita la. Mmg rasa macam nak nangis time tu jugak. Husben takde masa tu keluar lunch tak silap.

“Err kenapa ye..”

“Dua2 telinga mcm tak respon. Bunyi sampai ke koklea tapi takde respon”

“So mcmane ya..”

“Jadi kena repeat test lagi seminggu. Nanti kami advise sebelum discaj…”

“Tapi sebab apa ya. Normal ke result fail”

“Normal je. Kadang2 sebab air ketuban ada lagi dalam telinga belum kering lagi…”

So ummi ditinggalkan dengan penuh tanda tanya. Dan ofkoslah sedihhh sangat. Terus google huhu. Hearing impairment or deaf on babies. Reason? Premature (tidak), ada keturunan yg ada masalah pendengaran (tidak), low Apgar Score (arfaan 9/10, so tidak) etc… cuma ada satu tu yg mungkin ada related iaitu ibu masa mengandung ada ambil certain antibiotik atau ubat. Terus flashback aritu ada ambil antibiotik sbb ear infection. Pastu amik ubat sebab demam. Blamed myself the whole time. 

Googled every hour. Hearing aid. Earpiece. Cochlea implant. Special schools. Got nothing to do at the hospital, postdelivery so u get how crazy i was thinking of our baby’s future and he’s not even a week old. Huhu. Bila masa senyap betul2, kadang2 i saje tutup pintu toilet kuat sikit nak tgk ‘Arfaan ada terkejut tak. Bila dia tidur nyenyak, i purposedly make some noise near his ears. But negative. And it got me worried even more.

We discharged on the 5th and our next appointment with the Audiologist and paed was on the 14th. Masa discaj Dr Anthony kata failure rate utk test ni 50% sebab tu tak byk hospital keen utk buat screening ni for newborn. Tapi bagus utk buat for babies so that we know his hearing condition and impairment if any. 

The whole 9 days was not easy either. Aktiviti menguji pendengaran anak diteruskan di rumah. Dan nampak dia respon kalau pintu tertutup dgn kuat, bunyi motor atau lori kat luar etc. So i was certain that he can hear but perhaps the audiologist nanti will come out of hearing level i suppose??? Ye lah, contoh dia boleh dgr bunyi kuat tapi bukan bunyi perlahan. So aktiviti menguji pendengaran anak bertukar kepada uji dgn suara halus atau freq lebih rendah. Sabor je la. The struggle was real. The worry was no joke 😭 tapi rasanya i je beriya. Husbandku lebih tenang…huhu

On the 14th (12 days old) we went to PCMC and met the audiologist, En Iqbal. Test sama je. Device pun sama. Kejap je tak sampai beberapa minit, device tu keluarkan ‘bunyi PASS’, ie bunyi yg berbeza dari first test. Ya Allah upon hearing the sound came out from the device, i beamed with joy. Alhamdulillah his hearing both ears are fine, nothing to worry the audiologist said. 

Kemungkinan keputusan FAIL masa first time adalah,

1. Terlalu awal. Baby baru umur 2 hari

2. Ada cecair dalam salur telinga yg block masa ujian dijalankan eg amniotic fluid. Jadi tak accurate.

Saja berkongsi kisah ni supaya mana2 parents yg lalui peristiwa yg sama supaya tidak terlalu risau sebab ia adalah normal. Saya ada baca forum tu, anak dia 2nd test pun fail tapi bila umur sebulan, repeat test baru pass. So ITS NORMAL. Terutama utk parents yg deliver baby kat PCMC la sebab memang baby kena lalui test ni. Tak sure utk hospital lain.

Moga perkongsian ini bermanfaat!

One Month

‘Arfaan dah sebulan Jumaat lepas, 3 Mac alhamdulillah…


Berat dah 4.4kg! Ummi timbang pakai penimbang kat rumah ni je hihi. Ummi timbang pastu dukung ‘Arfaan pulak, pastu tolak2 dpt la berat ‘Arfaan ;p faham ke 😆

  • Dah tak pakai bedung dah. Rimas. Kalau bedung tu meneran2 mintak keluar hehe
  • Muka masih merah baby. Terutama kalau tgh nangis atau menggeliat. Merah padam muka tu adeh
  • Susu tiap 1-2jam. Tukar diapers pun
  • Efi (confinement lady) kami ajar diaper change cuci kat sink je pakai air suam. Takyah berkapas bagai nnt asik nak beli kapas je hihi
  • Tidur nak berdodoi. Tak berani lagi nak kasi tidur meniarap
  • Tak tidur pun nak berdodoi/berdukung 😅
  • Kuning ada lg sikit huhu. Ummi skrg mkn kurma nk kasi kuning cpt reda. Tadi pun dah mula mandi pakai air kucai. Try je la apape tips

As advised by his paed Dr Anthony, we’ll go straight to 2months checkup and jabs. Tak perlu checkup sebulan. So okayy. 

Will be hosting his aqiqah this coming weekend at my parents house. Moga lancar semuanya. Amiiin

Of 4th Trimester

Hehe. Maksudnya berpantang, post natal. 

Alhamdulillah dilancarkan urusan kelahiran. Balik rumah, sambung dgn berpantang. Rasanya sebulan baru rasa betul2 settle down dengan baby dan sakit dan emosi. Dan bentuk badan asal ?

Jaundice. Masa discaj ada tanya kat nurse takde bilirubin reading ke. Nurse kata doc tak amik reading sebab baby tak nampak kuning. Kami discaj hari ke-3 delivery. Hari ke-5, nurse Klinik Kesihatan Setapak datang melawat. Kena advise bwk baby amik darah sebab kuning tu nmpk ketara.  So kami akur, esoknya bawak hahh tudiaa reading 205! (Tahap kena duk bwh lampu adalah 275). Normal reading adalah 85. Tapi reading lebih 200 tu i was saspen jugak. Doctor KK kata kena monitor reading pattern sampai hari ke-14 sebab ni tempoh kritikal yg boleh efek otak baby. Esoknya gi lagi reading dah 183. Few days after 150. Last week 133. Begitulah menurun sampai dah nak sebulan ni baru nmpk kuning tu tak obvious sgt. Sama macam ‘Aaqil dulu. Dah hbs pantang baru free from jaundice. Ingatkan ‘Arfaan takdpt sbb sama darah O dgn ummi rupanya ada jgk huhu. Treatment sama je, kena kerap menyusu dan kuning akan hilang dgn kerapnya kencing+berak. 

Ruam. Ni ‘Arfaan ada kat muka sejak lahir. Macam jerawat kecik. Tiap hari makin byk. Kat area mata hilang, naik kat leher. Leher hilang, naik kat tangan. Horror jgk tgk. See. Mcm very sensitive skin kan. I still blame the half boiled eggs the nite before delivery. Adeh. Tapi yelah benda nak jadi kan. Balik rumah, tambah dgn kejap panas kejap ekon pun ya jgk. Masa discaj doc bagi ubat sapu Fucidin dan ubat utk letak dlm air mandi. Neves kan bangun2 pagi esok tu tgk kat kepala ada gini. Iskk. Tiap hari dok belek kulit anak. Huhu. Alhamdulillah lepas 2wks camtu xnmpk dah jerawat tu.

Kulit mengelupas. Apa yg ummi makan dan tak makan masa pegnen yg buat ‘Arfaan dpt masalah kaitan kulit ni. So atas nasihat doc, lepas mandi kena sapu dgn baby oil atau losyen supaya kulit baby sentiasa lembap. Pun lepas 2wks baru ok. Alhamdulillah.

Nappy rash. Ni stat dari minggu ke-2 kot. Masa ‘Aaqil dulu dari kat hospital memang pakai cotton dan air utk cuci his bum2. Takde prob ni. Tapi skrg ni taktau la pcmc tukar prosedur ke jimat kos ke sebab sejak baby day one nurse pakai wet wipes utk cuci. Awal2 ok je. Lepas seminggu tu tiap kali diaper change ‘Arfaan menjerit2 bila lap especially kat celah bonts. Sian sgt dia. Tgk2 dah merah melecet siap ada gerutu lagi. Alahai sian. Sejak tu, kitorg tukar kepada kapas dan air suam, dan sapu sudocrem setiap kali tukar.  Lepas 2mggu gitu pakai Sudocrem, nmpk slow sgt nak hilang merah. So ummi sejenis kurang sabar maka pakailah Earth Mama. I swear by this product since ‘Aaqil eczema dulu. Mana ada rashes ke apa sapu ni je terus baik. After a week tukar ke earth mama, alhamdulillah terus ok. Cuma mungkin lepas habis pantang baru berani nak pakai wipes utk diaper change. Mmg lagi senang pakai wipes terutama kalau travelling kan. So sementara tak kuar memana ni bertabah la dgn cotton+air. Baby pun lagi selesa… ni reminder utk next baby ya haha ie no wet wipes for super newborn babies. 

Rasanya semua baby lain2 cabaran masa dalam hari. So nota2 kat atas ni bolehlah utk prevention di masa depan hehe

Ummi pun diduga jugak. Bengkak susu, sembelit, buasir. Alhamdulillah kali ni takde baby blues macam dulu. Ada la kot satu malam tu macam sebak tgk ‘Aaqil sbb kitorg kan berkepit berdua for so many years. Now ada orang ketiga hehe. Sejak ada ‘Arfaan dah kurang borak2 dgn dia. Yelah, walid lg byk masa dengan dia. So slow2 dapat dah rutin tu dan dapat borak2 dgn dia sambil peluk2 dia. Biasalah kot sindrom dapat anak no-2 ?

Bengkak susu. Alhamdulillah ‘Arfaan dapat menyusu seawal jam pertama lahir. Tak silap stgh jam lepas lahir, dia dah dpt bfeed dan terus pandai latch. Dan dia pun nangis bila lapar takdelah tidur je. First week ok demand n supply. Masuk 2nd week tu start dah bengkak susu. Fuh stres jugak. Nak pump tapi takde let down. So susu stuck. So bila baby susu sebelah, tandem sebelah lagi. Lepas beberapa hari baru ok. Kena pump at least 2x sehari baru susu stable. Now alhamdulillah dah ok cuma kadang overflow so ‘Arfaan jap2 lepas sbb takleh cope susu laju sgt. Pelan2 kayuh ye dikk…

Sembelit/Buasir. Mimpi ngeri bertandang lagi. 1st week ok. 2nd week dia mula. Adoi. Masa discaj ada dapat ubat minum Duphalac tu ie utk soften stool. Kat hospital tiap malam nurse bagi. Balik rumah je konfiden tak minum. Lagipun tiap meal mmg makan buah dan minum air banyak. So 2nd week tu mulalah episod duk dalam toilet berjam2 sampai nak nangis rasa. Nasib baik ubt bengkak masa pregnant dulu simpan lagi. So makan tu, minum Duphalac, makan oste. Seminggu jugak baru slow2 okay. Alhamdulillah. Pengajaran la lenkali jgn tinggal ubat doktor huhu…

Food craving. Haha ni taktau kenapa. Dugaan jugak ni. Alkisah momentum makan macam2 masa pegnen terbawa2 lepas deliver. Imagine tiap kali bwk baby p KK lalu kat gerai tepi2 tu mata buntang je tgk ada jual kuih apa. Scroll ig nampak orang pi makan mcm2 semua teringin. Ada satu hari ni tak tahan, pi order LactoMomma cookies sebab nak makan sedap punya pasal.  Depa claim milkbooster tapi sejak dulu saya memang tak lut dgn milkbooster so alhamdulillah kalau tidak bengkak2 makan ni adeh. Bagus biskut ni sbb dlm pantang boleh makan sebab takde telur dalam ingredients nya. Yang pecan tu sedap. Tapi mahal ya ampun. Dah hbs makan tu takde dah teringin lol. Masalah sebenar saya adalah sweet tooth. Suka benda manis. Dan sejuk. Asik teringat kat aiskrim n teh o ais dan frappe. Notty sangat pantang kali ni. Blame the instagram. Oh ya time2 cemni la FluffKL buat pop up bagai kan. Oh sgt la kejam. Tapi mak sabar. Tunggu lah 44 hari nanti makin panjang list ni?

Ala kulli hal, im forever grateful that i have my husband by my side the whole time. Dan confinement lady yg dtg tiap hari uruskan rumah baby semua. So im not too overwhelmed with these challenges. Malam2 kena berjaga pun rasa tak se stress dulu. Sebab gilir ngan husben. Tukar pampers pun most of the time husben yg buat. 

Alhamdulillah. Moga Allah mudahkan,lancarkan penjagaan baby lepas2 ni. I have to slowly cope with housechores and babycare. Lepasni bila dah habis cuti nak kena adapt dgn rutin tiap hari pulak. 

I just want to enjoy every moment raising my kids. May Allah bless amiin…

Birth Story : D-Day

3rd Feb 2017

0325hrs

I woke up feeling discomfort. Tried to change my sleeping position few times but I failed to fall asleep. Sigh. No pain just yet. No contraction. Just a bit discomfort. Blamed the half boiled egg i had for dinner. Hehe padan muka. Went to the loo. Takde hasil. Hmm

*terkebil-kebil mata sambil jeles kat suami & Aaqil tido nyenyak*

Few minutes to 0500hrs i started to feel mild cramping. I was unsure whether it was just normal braxton hicks or its THE contraction. So i ignored. 

0530hrs

This is when I started to time my contraction, coz it seemed hmmm regular. Just like what i did during my first labor 🙂

See. Its already 10mins apart! Weehoo! Err thats not how u supposed to respond to a contraction but u get what i mean he he. In between contractions, i tried to sleep but i just cant — mix of feelings ie worried, excited, nervous… 

Azan subuh, I woke up my husband. Told him “sayang, dah sakit tadi since 5pg. Rasa kena pergi hospital ni”. Pergh He woke up, solat, and prepared ‘Aaqil for school and prepped our stuff to bring to hospital. He even managed to iron all his t-shirts that he’ll bring to the hosp. My super husband hehehe. I got up and performed Subuh. Perhaps my last prayer prior to the ‘war’. Beranak ni umpama jihad kan kata orang huhu. It was the longest Subuh ever because remember i was in between contractions. Neves gila nak rukuk ke sujud sebab takut terberanak sbb mcm squat kan…

After subuh i sambung baring. In my mind, let husband send ‘Aaqil to school first. He’ll be back home to fetch me and then we can go to emergency. Perhaps grab some breakfast in between.

Memang tak la kan. 

Husband was not keen to leave me alone at home. So he pujuk me to go mandi. So 7.30am i went mandi and it took me forever to get ready. In the toilet ada 3x contractions. Everytime, i’d hold the sink with my both hands, standing. Tak berani nak squat sebab still kat rumah. Huhu. 

0815hrs

Off we went. I told my family through whatsapp that we were on our way to prince court. It was Home – Petrol station – Aaqil’s school – PCMC btw. The pain was getting stronger. Especially when the road was bumpy. I tried as much not to scream. Along the way i figured that with this amount of pain, if the opening is only 1cm, i swear i’d take epidural. I remember when we went to emergency during Aaqil’s labor, i was so much calmer. And it was 3cm when we arrived. So this time around its either my pain threshold is lesser or the opening is bigger. Prayed for the latter.

0910hrs

Arrived at PCMC emergency. They got me a wheelchair and wheeled me to labour room at Level 6. While my husband parked the car. Sambil tu staff hosp yg tolak tu inteview nak kasi calm kot. Sampai labour room, the midwife asked me to change and she asked me to lie down coz she’ll do the internal check, the VE la ofcourse kan. 

“Ada plan nak pakai epidural ke atau pain mgmt lain…”  inshaallah tak nurse

*the VE*

“Ok betul ni awk taknak gas ke” geleng. Tp kenapa dia tak offer epidural

“Berapa dah nurse”

She grinned. “Dah nak deliver ni. Dah 7cm ya…kalau awk rasa macam nak teran awk tekan butang ni ya utk panggil nurse”

We both smiled with relieved. Kan dah kataaaaa memang sakit dia macam opening dah besar. But this time around my waterbag didnt burst ‘voluntarily’ hehe. 

0945hrs

The contractions already 5mins apart. Dr Seri came in. Happy gila nampak dia and she was equally happy to see us before 5th Feb haha. Siap tanya what did you do (sbb baru je jumpa dia less than 24hrs ago, baby still not engaged) hhehhe. 

She prepped herself and checked me again. 9.5cm way to goooo baby. Didnt feel anything when she breaks my waterbag. Siap tanya nurse air ketuban saya dah pecah ke nurse sebab rasa basah ?

Was soooo excited (in pain). So near but yet so far. The final phase was the most challenging ie PUSHING THE BABY OUT. 

1000hrs (i think ;p)

Dr Seri came in. Another VE, ok 10cm. Ok i can see baby’s hair. But baby dah berak takpe its ok this is normal. She said. Anytime now ok kausar. There were my husband, Dr Seri, midwive and 2 nurses in the room. Dulu time Aaqil ada satu team bola dlm bilik masa nak push haha almaklum lama dalam labor room. Kali ni tak ramai sgt. 

They were all looking at the CTG reader. Ok the contraction coming…. Think I had to went through 2 cycle of contractions with 3 sets of counting (to push) each. It was so painful that i screamed for the first time, “Sakitnya ya Allah!”. Cant remain calm no more huhu. In less than 15mins, at 10.10am, the baby’s out!!! Phew alhamdulillah :):) rasa lega baby tu blubbbb keluar dari my womb was beyond words. Next cord cutting – took out the placenta – episiotomy stitching yaw.

The midwife put my baby on my chest and all i can say was alhamdulillah subhanallah and panasnya baby LOL emotional much. 

Everything happened so fast we even had time to ask for a picture with our Dr Seri, right after she finished stitching me up. Look at our happy faces, minutes after the ‘war’ ?…

Alhamdulillah ❤

Introducing our 2nd mujahid,
Muhammad ‘Arfaan Kamil, weigh 3.13kg, length 49cm, born on 3rd Feb, Friday, at 1010hrs. The 39wks+ carrying you in my womb and 5hrs labor pain were all worth it. I’d say it was an easy and spontaneous delivery indeed alhamdulillah…

May you grow to be a devoted muslim amiin. I’d like to humbly share my doa 5x a day, since the day i knew i was pregnant, 

“Ya Allah lindungilah kandunganku dari sebarang komplikasi. Berikanlah aku kesihatan yang baik sepanjang kehamilan ini. Kurniakanlah kami anak2 yg soleh, taat, sempurna, bijak, comel dan menjadi qurratu’ain buat semua. Permudahkanlah urusan ku melahirkan zuriat ini. Dijauhkan dari sebarang komplikasi. Permudahkanlah urusan confinement ku nanti. Rabbi yassir wala tuassir ya karim. Bismillahillazi la yadhurru ma’asmihi syai un fil ardhi wala fissamaa’i wahuwassamii’ul ‘aliim…”

Amalkan surah Yusuf, Luqman, Maryam, dan Taubah, memang surah2 ni agak panjang so it’ll take me few nights to finish each surah. 2 pages/nite. Surah Luqman je pendek sikit leh habis sekali baca. Lepas dah fullterm tu ulang baca surah Maryam je. Moga amalan ni sedikit sebanyak permudahkan urusan kehamilan dan proses melahirkan bayi inshaallah. Future reminder for me as well 🙂

Birth Story : T minus 1

Feb 2nd, 12noon our 39w4d checkup. A day after Dr Seri came back from her holiday. Upon entering her room i said “Yay am still pregnant! Baby behave” lol. Dr Seri gelak haha. She was in casual attire since she’s still in vacation mode. Ada 3 patient je aritu so cepat jugakla sampai turn kitorang. So borak2 sikit then she said, “Lets have a look how the babys doing..”

I have this thing about ultrasound. I wont look at the screen so much. I’d look at the doc/sonographer’s expression. So i noticed that Dr Seri looked concern *lap peluh*. Well alhamdulillah..the baby’s fine, cord’s fine, amniotic fluid fine, placenta’s fine. But the look explained when she said,

 “Since this is a precious pregnancy, i cant let you go over 40wks. I have to schedule you for an induction on the edd (6 feb) sbb takut ada any complication kalau kita tunggu lagi. Other gynae will opt for caesarean for case like u. Tapi u’ve done this before kan kausar. U can go normal delivery tapi kena induce la ya…”

Lebih kurang macamtu. Oh btw the baby’s not engaged yet *sigh* Guess that evening walk at Taman Titiwangsa (the day before) didnt give much progress in that department huuu


                Our 39wks+ selfie hehe

So her instruction was for us to get admitted on 5th Feb after dinner and prep for the next morning delivery! Phew! ONLY IF the baby decided not to make his debut earlier hehehhe. Dr Seri reminds us not to take any air selusuh just to force the baby out – fyi, u’ll feel strong contractions but u wont be dilated, no progress. 

Half hearted ly we took the admission form. Whatever the best for you baby. But deep down inside was still hoping for a naturally induced delivery, just like ‘Aaqil last time. Takpe kata orang rezeki lain2 kan. May Allah ease this time around.

We didnt want to give in. That afternoon we went to One Utama shopping complex and we walk for 2hours straight to each level, from new wing to old wing. Sambil tu sempat stop for baskin robbins haha. At around 5.15 we made a move and went to pick up Aaqil at skool. 

We got back home and after maghrib we went to Wangsa Walk for dinner. Tried ourlt the new Jombali outlet. Out of the blue, i ordered 2 half boiled eggs as sides. Haha. I finished em but not my nasi goreng. The portion was too big i guess. Then we take a walk until the mall closed. Sambung yg petang tadi punya jalan2.

But still, no sign of contraction *sigh* So i posted this pic at my instagram acc,


Yassss 5.5km!! Way to go ???? but yeah…no sign just yet hmm

… to be continued 

Memorable Melaka

On our way back to KL from JB last month we had a little detour to Melaka. Hanis Zalikha to be blamed. I watched her (son’s) reality show the other day and they had this roadtrip to Melaka just to find foodsss. She was 39wks pregnant during the shoot. While i was 34wks masa masuk Melaka tu he he

We checked out at 12noon so when we reached Melaka it was just in time for a late lunch. Masa tu dalam 3pm kot. So our first destination was of course the famous Ee Ji Ban Chicken Rice Ball! 

Punyalah susah nak dapat parking memula tu. So my husband dropped me first to find meja for us. Around 15mins baru dapat meja phew. So many ppl i tell youuu. 

We ordered their chicken rice balls (1 set 10pcs, RM3). But nasi for aaqil. Half chicken. Kailan goreng. Fishball soup. Nyonya petai squid goreng garam (mcm sambal gitu). Sedapppnya. Especially the rice balls. Aaqil last2 paw ktorg punya hihi. So we ordered another 10pcs ?

The price was a bit on the high side because half chicken is the minimum order. If not, we cant dine in (as pasted on their wall). So if you go in a group of 4 adults, the portion would be just nice. 

Dengan kekenyangan, we cont our journey to search for the Kuih Keria Gula Melaka! THE keria. Hehe. The stall was only less than 15mins journey from the chicken rice shop. When we reached there, there was around 40ppl queueing, but the keria was not there LOL! I guess theyre all waiting for the next batch of keria to arrive. So we parked our car, grab an umbrella (it was scorching hawtt) and joined the long q. Since the q was not moving so my husband and aaqil went for zohor+asar at the nearby masjid.

….10 minutes later, the ‘staff’ came with packs of keria. There were at least 20packs kot. The first few ppl in the q bought one-five packs each haha. Memang tgk situasi tu akakkk konfirm takde rejeki nak makan keria viral. Even the q was not moving. Yet. 

Then one hamba allah, a young lady, approached me and hand me over a piece of keria that she managed to grab. She said “awk ambiklah saya bagi free. At least tau rasa dia. Takut tak sampai turn awk…” All eyes were on me. Refused to take the keria at first but looking at her face, she was really sincere. So peganglah seketul keria kat tangan kanan, kiri pegang payung. Hehe

Few minutes later, a young man approached me and hand me over 2 packs of keria!!!! Of course I refused! He insisted. Ok how should i react to this. So i asked him “err berapa ringgit ni ya..byk sangat ni” “eh takpelah kak. Isteri saya pun mengandung ni saya beli utk dia jadi saya beli utk akak jugak”………

Speechless. Allah bless these generous and thoughtful ppl. May Allah grant them more rezeki…

So i walked away from the q with most of the eyes were on me. I was stunned with the generosity ?

We enjoyed the keria so much that we almost finished the whole packs (20pcs) in less than an hour! Considering our tummy full masa tu LOL. The keria were soooooooooooo goooooooddddd alhamdulillah …

We reached KL almost maghrib, mandi solat and out for coin laundry&light dinner hehe. No klebang coconut shake but thats okay. Next pregnancy lah cemtuw ??

Thank you Melaka for the memories, see you again inshaAllah with the new addition in the family amiiiin

The Unforgettable 38w4d Checkup

So a week after we went for another check up. Which was yesterday. The hilarious one i must say. Funny but complicated. Lol

Few days before i was sooo looking forward for birth, coz first; my husband finally here (yay!), second; its about time when Aaqil was born ie at around 38wks, third; cant wait to meet this lil bub, his weight is just niceeee, just the right ‘size’ for me to push him out? I even googled “gentle birthing tips” and “how to induce labor naturally” ha ha thats how serious i was. We even planned the long weekend for jalan2 at mall dari hujung ke hujung just to kickoff the labor ;p

So yesterday, husband teased me. Nak naik tangga tak sampai tingkat 6 (the clinic) . But i replied takpelah, tgk nanti kalau baby belum engagaged kita turun pakai tangga lah. He he.

I gained 2kgs in a week!! Yayy. Siap cakap yesss masa timbang. Nurse tu pun pelik2 tny kenapa suka haha. 

Fiza called my name. Tak sempat nak duduk dpn Dr Seri terus Dr Seri cakap “kausar duk diam2 ya” pastu tgk my face clueless, dia sambung…”Coz i’ll be flying to xxx tonite. I’ll only be back on 1 Feb…”

Buntang mata jap. Taktau nak react camne. Pandang husband. Pastu sengih lama2 tergelak sbb kelakar dr seri cakap gitu ??

Dr Seri kata the plan was adhoc and she has to make this trip yada yada. Family related thingy. Tapi rasa cam kelakarrrr sangat the whole session we were laughing our hearts out sebab now we have to plan to just stay home the whole weekend lol. And no more Jan babyyyy. Dgn Fiza2 pun sama masuk dalam cerita psl cny holiday plan lol

Dr Seri quickly ok let us scan the baby so we know where we’re at. She pressed my tummy. Oooo tinggi lagi ni. Phew baby has not engaged yet. Haha phew okay. And he gained 200g in a week alhamdulillahhh. No more worries. Ummi makan byk. If the babys out after Dr Seri balik, he’ll prolly be 3.2kg camtu whoaaa. Aaqil was only 2.85kg mind you. She even said that she doesnt like to induce her patients just because she’ll be away for vacation its ufair to them. And she’s not keen on ‘giveaway’ her patients to other gynaes. Mcm rasa xbest gitu. Awwww

The head was still ‘floating’ as shown in the ultrasound screen. Not in the birth canal yet. Not just yet. Alhamdulillahh 

Dr Shilpa will be replacing Dr Seri’s cases when shes away. But ye lah of course you want your own gynae to be there when u in labor kan. Plus shes the only muslim lady gynae in the hosp. I want her to sambut my baby…

So. For now, all i can do is not to induce labor naturally just yet. Let the baby snuggle a lil bit longer. Enjoy the last few days being preganant. Aaqil to enjoy his last few days of being the only child. Oh and did i tell you that i’ve begin my nesting instinct — i can spent this cny weekend spring cleaning my wardrobe, my fridge, my freezer… He he

Having said that, on topppppp of everything, the most important thing is my baby is safely delivered, healthy and we both have no complications post delivery. Amiin. Whoever sambut the baby is no 2. Babies know their birthday. Allah knows best. Right. 
Oh we’ll be meeting the gynae again on 2nd Feb! What happen in between today to that date is rahsia Allah. Pray for us!! ❤️

Of Recent Checkup

So earlier today we went for our 38wks check up. Was quite nervous the whole time because we need only oneeeeeee more week before we can let the baby out. Aci ke ayat cemtuh. Coz next week husband will still be in KK. And i still have to close out my project final review. CNY only we can call “its timeeee babyyyyy” ? So sekarang baby pls help yourself inside ummi buatlah mcm rumah sendiri sementara tunggu walid balik okayy

So i just gained 100gram from my weight 2wks ago ie 60.7kg. Say whatttt. We actually went for brunch at Haslam prior to the checkup — nasi campur ngan roti canai pisang dgn 2gelas air. So i thot that wud make me emm 2kgs heavier, no? In total i’ve gained 13kgs from my pre pregnancy weight. Ok la kan. 

So masa scan i was hoping that the baby took all the 100g plus 100g from i dunno where. Our 36wks recorded 2.6kgs. Today? 2.76kg. When Dr Seri plotted the fetal growth in the chart, it seemed the baby growth is at plateau abit. Growth not as expected. 

Suspen.

“Hmm kenapa eh doc. Saya makan banyak dah… Amniotic fluid ok kan”

“Tu la i tgk mcm plateau ni. Hmm. Let me measure the fluid. So far i nampak normal je. If not i kena induce you…”

Terus muka pucat pandang husben. Dalam hati doa supaya everything is normal. I dun fancy the word induce. Tskkk

“Ok sini ok. Here also ok. Hah… Ur fluid level just fine. Kenapa ni adikkkk. I rasa u memang jenis ruan kecik ni…”

Pandai Dr Seri sedapkan hati i huhu

Oh btw baby still on the high side. Tak turun lagi. Which makes me relief. Coz we need at least another week pretty pls. CNY onwards nanti kita jalan bebanyak ok. Ukur jubin mall, squat dsbg

So next checkup is in 6days. 

Lepas pcmc singgah low yat plaza. Husband nak cari barang. So lepak minum frappe nak kasi berat katanya. But honestly i ate a lot. Err i think. Tho at times i ate in less portion coz my tummy getting smaller i guess. 

As long as the baby is fine and healthy we are more than happy amiiin

So baby pls stay put til next checkup and grow sikit je lagi before we meet okayhhh ❤️

2016 Rolla Costah

cant believe its already the last day of 2016! I’d say this year flies so fast u have no idea. So many ups and downs, dreams shattered, plans gone haywired, unexpected gift and surprisingly we managed to go through this year phewwww*lap peluh* … syukur ke hadrat ilahi

Familyplanning-wise, I can still remember we (our little family) started the year with high hope that my husband will demob to KL from Ashgabat for good in Feb; after been let down for few months, as promised by HR…since early 2015 mind u ;( So we braved few more weeks to Feb 2016. I even have my calendar being strikes out day by day, countdownla kunun. 

Come Feb, we got another news. All mob-demob of personnel kena freeze due to restructuring exercise throughout the company. Not only we were upset with the postponement, but with the not-so-happy rumors on salary cutting la, vss la, downsizing la etc. Feb was an emotional month for both our careers and family planning. I was sooooo overwhelmed with so many things in my head that i decided to leave Facebook (until today alhamdulillah still sober lol). Deleted fb from my phone. Thats what i did. Walaupun ekceli takde kena mengena pun dengan re-org tu. Kebetulan je. Hehe. Just so happen that i want to clear up my mind (fb ni kadang semak especially bila ada benda viral dan it occupies my mind yg tgh semak masa tu hihi). 

So yeah dari Feb pospon ke Mac. And finallyyyyyyy 19th March my husband finally back in KL like finally. 3x finally tu haha. Kurang beberapa hari je tu genap 4 tahun bermastautin di bumi Turkmenistan huhu. No doubt the country has been good to us, the memories we will forever cherish in our life ❤️

Not even 2 weeks we celebrated his homecoming, the company was vss-ing ppl, moving the staff, trasfer sana transfer sini. Then we heard rumors that my husband’s name was NOT in KL. Say whatttt. I even have the possibility to be transferred outside KL. What will happen to all our 2016 plans and dreams and —–

30th of March, at our airbnb stay in the middle of Tokyo city, we braved ourselves with the news…ie reading his letter of transfer to *drumrolls* Sabah operations. It was such an emotional night for both of us. Terus pk Aaqil camne, i camne, dia camne…after so many yrs being apart…then this happens.

It took us few hours to finally fall asleep and decided to sleep on it haha. Pagi tu macam2 idea keluar – sambil nak bersiap ke Disneyland. Can u imagine our mix of emotions at that time. We were on vacation and dealing w not so good news at the same time. My husband tried his luck to delay the date of mob to Sabah. Pujuk bos la. Riki HR la. But little that we know that not only us facing the sudden news. Some of our close friends been offered w vss. Some others went through the same ordeal as us, ie LDR and most of em w small kids. Alhamdulillah it  took us less than a day to actually digest this news and redha. Acceptance is hard but  thats the only option we have. And make the best of it. Alhamdulillah im still at KL office so its just back to square one. Cuma i no longer stay w my parents that is. New challenge tu. 

Financial-wise, it has been one of the most challenging year. Firstly, we no longer enjoy the international allowance that we hav since 2012. Now we are quite tight up with this ‘new arrangement’ ie we have to impulsely buy a 2nd car, new furnitures for the house at Sabah, monthly rental n expenses, AND the weekly flight ticket KK-KL-KK. Quite a big chunks of RM there. Aaqil was not happy with walid only around during weekends. But thats the best arrangement we can make for him so that it wont be the same as walid-kat-Ashgabat. Inshaallah duit flight tu berbaloi. Nak kira brp habis mmg nangis tapi life goes on. Ini bahagian kami…❤️ at least husben kat kk. Ada kawan tu wife kat bintulu, dia kat kl. Anak 2org kecik2 lg. Bintulu tu ada satu je kot flite pegi balik kl tiap hari. So my fren jaga si kakak, wife jaga baby. Cant imagine of we were in their shoes… Allah uji ikut kemampuan hambaNya…

Despite that,

Allah granted our du’a in front of Kaabah, at haramain, in Raudhah, ie to conceive again. Alhamdulillah. 2 months after my husband transferred to Sabah, we received this big-beyond-happiness news. Allah Maha Kaya. Allah Maha Adil. With me alone w Aaqil and this lil bub inside me, i know that if He get us to this, He will get us through this. My pregnancy so far alhamdulillah no complications. Allah blessed me with energy and redha and sabar. He knows my limit. Ada sorang kawan cakap, bila diuji macam ni, barulah kita rasa sangat pergantungan kita hanya pada Allah, bukan pd manusia…so true!!??

And the pregnancy just became the highlight of my year. All the tears and frustrations during the first quarter of the year seems nothing. Allah is the best planner. He wont give us all. He leave us with a tiny ongoing ujian so that we keep on remember Him. Syukur…

Oh so THAT ??? my fellow readers, are my 2016 roller coaster ride highlights he he. Other than that, in random..

1. We went to Japan(woot!) during sakura blooming – spring in March. Japan is just uhmaaazinggg. We wish to comeback someday he he. Mahal naw naw so kena tunggu tabung Aaqil penuh. Eh ??

2. I dunno how this made to the list but looking at the no of purple boxes growing giv me somewhat therapy hihi. Yes I got dUCk-ed. Like a pregnancy hormones or something. Frankly i’ve once condemned the brand for putting ridiculos price on a scarf. Tapi tak tahan beb. Especially bila tgk cite Love Vivy. Baby nak jgk lol salahkan baby. My fav would be the PB satin silk. N those georgettes. Chiffons pun best. Pendek je la ducktower tu compare ngan hardcore duckies hehe. My next target is their #worldmapduck. Moga berjaya dalam battle itteww?? If u nak try ducks tapi xmo spend too much you can go to ig #duckscarvestoletgo and buy the preloved ones w cheaper price. Tapi premium basics je la. Yg limited ed macam bloomingduck tu harga makin naik adalah sampai almost rm1k selai. Hehe

3. Aaqil been rushed to emergency due to high fever TWICE! Within less than 2mths gap. Sekali bln puasa, lg sekali cuti merdeka. Luckily nothing serious. Only infection so after few hrs under close monitoring he was discharged. And both happened during weekdays so husband wasnt around. Alhamdulillah my dad and lil sister were available to accompany us during those hard times. My family is definitely my strengths.

4. Trip to KK and Kundasang for a week. So happen that Aaqil’s school was closed for whole week during EidAdha+Hari Malaysia so i took leave and spend a week there. Supposed to blog about this but so malas. Later i pwomise.

5. Aaqil needs to wear glasses! I was quite upset when his specialist revealed to us the news. I was in denial. He’s supposed to start wearing ’em in Aug. But i just ignore the prescription letter by the doctor. Suami pun xmo paksa nnt mak buyung marahh hihi. Until in Nov if im not mistaken, I finally told my husband ok lets do this. Power dia tak tinggi sgt pun dlm 75 gtu je. Tapi silau tinggi. We also dont want his squint eyes to recur. We went high and low looking for the most suitable glasses for his age. Yelah budak2 kan lasak, belum pandai jaga barang etc. So MIRAFLEX is the best brand in town. Very practical and comfortable for kids. The frames are made of rubber, comes w more than 20 colors! Cantikk. Cuma downside dia adalah tak byk kedai ada brand ni. We finally found his glasses at a very small optical store at Mydin PV12. So far dah pakai dekat 3wks and he seems okay with it alhamdulillah 

6. One of the sweetest memory for 2016 was ; Aaqil received an award for Best Khalifah in his class during Ihtifal ceremony! Alhamdulillah. Also he is now able to read in Malay. He just started ReadEasy for english few months back. We are forever proud of him regardless. May he continues to excel in both academic n akhlak n a better muslim for sure. Amiin

7. Recently we went for our babymoon(nak jugak) cum roadtrip cum LegoLand trip for year end vacation! SO.MUCH.FUN… Coz we also cramped in our iteneraries with jjcm at JB and Melaka. Bestttt! Later jugak i blog if rajin hihehu

  Our most recent photo – boxing day 2016 ?? Me @ 34wks?

And that my dear, wraps up our 2016. No doubt it has been colorful with lots of love and blessings alhamdulillahhh 

May 2017 brings us more hope, more happiness, more rezeki and better person amiiin! ❤️